Wake me up When September Ends
I'm feeling a little down lately because regardless of my efforts, it seems to me that there is an unending cycle to problems. It keeps piling up and up. Life is hard. How do you cope up with life? I managed to cope up somehow in which I'm thankful for the books, music and the internet. It makes my life more bearable. I can vent out my feelings here without the guilt. Friends, you say? I don't think I have recently because I'm disappointed in people. What I realized being a long time listener is that no one really wants to listen to your problems when you need it the most. At the end, it is utterly exhausting and depressing. As I give myself to people, I didn't realize that I was neglecting the most important person in my life which is myself.
You see, I abhor being selfish. I felt guilty when I think about myself. So I held back a lot. As time passed and the lessons strucked hard, it dawned on me that being selfish for the sake of your sanity is not a sin. It is okay to think first for yourself. Because no one is the best advocate for you than you.
I need to wake up since it's the end of September.
